Creativity as Meditation
i’ve been using
art + creativity
as a meditation
it’s nearly impossible
to focus
on much else
than the
paint or piano
under finger tips
slowing down is
still a challenge for me
well… for my mind
my body looooves
being slow
that’s where we feel safe
heart in check
in total control
every move tender
no mistakes
to be made here
no risks
no mishaps
no
p
a
i
n
but this sweet
lil thought bag
weighing heavy on
shoulders
whewww
is she loud!
should i sit more?
the yoga teacher in me
says yes and shames
me when i say it’s
just not for me
yet maybe the things
we resist the most
stillness
creativity
silence
love
are the exact things
here to heal us
not a cure all
[that’s not healing]
but a gentle invitation
to settle
[the nervous system]
to quiet the mind
to soften the
barriers to the heart
You are not Failing, You are Finding your own Path
You are not failing, you are finding your own path.
In 2017, I left behind what everyone expected to be my life-long career of Audiology. I had received a Doctorate by the age of 26 + I (+ everyone else) thought I had it made.
After 5 years of working in research at a VA Hospital in SoCal, I knew something had to shift. *I* had to shift. I could no longer swallow the idea of showing up day in + day out to sit behind a desk. Or repeat over + over again, “raise your hand when you hear the beep”.
No one warned me about the mental + emotional toll entrepreneurship would take. I wasn’t prepared for the shame I’d carry for years for leaving behind a “good” job that provided safety + security. Plus, stripping away the pride of telling people “I’m a DOCTOR” versus “I work in retail + teach yoga”.
Yet, no one warned me about the immense gratitude I would have for myself for carving my own path. For being brave enough to question what was expected of me. For taking a leap of faith to follow my heart. No matter the consequences.
This path has been windy AF. And lonely too. I am often having to remind myself that I have not failed. I am not failing. I am trailblazing my own path + THAT is success in + of itself.
If you’re feeling called to shake up something in your life but you aren’t sure where to even begin, I want to know. I want to support you + lessen that load. I want to empower you to live the life you actually WANT, the life that tickles your soul!
I’m not telling you it will be easy + all fun. I can guarantee it won’t be, actually. But with me, you will have support, resources, tools, empowerment, clarity + a life YOU are proud of.