i am terrified to love you
i’ve waited my whole life for
someone like you
without even knowing it
without the awareness that
it could be this easy
to rest in the arms of love
with such trust and peace
to be looked after and cared for in the
ways i wish my folks had loved me
to be held and seen by clear eyes in the
ways that i let few people witness
to be desired and praised by a most
passionate lover
your full embracing of me
feels like too much
too good to be true
what’s your end game?
to have spent a lifetime of
assuming it normal to
fall short of having my
most basic needs be met
to bloom then wilt in homes
where i had to
shrivel and die just to be
tolerated
not accepted
to now have someone
you
to see me
to love me
to make me whole
to now have someone
you
bake the cake my
father never made
take an hour of your
work day to chat
drive 30 minutes to kiss me
hello and drop off snacks
i am terrified to love you
but i do
”I am Terrified to Love You”
Jan 2024