R. A. P. E.

Roses are red
Violets are blue
i’d like to share
a poem with you

R. 

A. 

P. 

E.

 
Rape.
i know
just the word conjures
bile in throat
quickening of heart
sweat in palms

R.

A.

P.

E.


Rape.
Sexual assault.
Molestation.
Words matter.
Say it aloud.
Share your story.
Release your shame.

R.

A.

P.

E.


Rape.
it is not your fault
+ no you didn’t have to 
fight harder
or say no louder 
or again

R.

A.

P.

E.


Rape.
it doesn’t matter what you were 
wearing
how drunk you were
or if you fucked before 

R.

A.

P.

E.

Rape
This does not define you
You will heal from this
I promise
YOU WILL HEAL


“R. A. P. E.” 4/21/23

I am Terrified to Love You

i am terrified to love you 

i’ve waited my whole life for 

someone like you

without even knowing it 

without the awareness that 

it could be this easy 

to rest in the arms of love 

with such trust and peace

to be looked after and cared for in the 

ways i wish my folks had loved me 

to be held and seen by clear eyes in the

ways that i let few people witness 

to be desired and praised by a most 

passionate lover 

your full embracing of me 

feels like too much 

too good to be true 

what’s your end game? 

to have spent a lifetime of 

assuming it normal to 

fall short of having my

most basic needs be met 

to bloom then wilt in homes 

where i had to 

shrivel and die just to be 

tolerated

not accepted 

to now have someone 

you 

to see me

to love me

to make me whole

to now have someone 

you 

bake the cake my 

father never made 

take an hour of your 

work day to chat 

drive 30 minutes to kiss me

hello and drop off snacks 

i am terrified to love you 

but i do


”I am Terrified to Love You”
Jan 2024

What Does it Mean to be Trauma-Informed and Why is it Important Along Your Healing Journey? 

Whether you consider yourself a survivor of trauma or not, I can guarantee you’ve experienced some level of it before. Maybe it was only something as small as getting cut off in traffic and being unable to dislodge that feeling of anger in a timely or appropriate manner. Or maybe you’re all too familiar with the pain of trauma, as you’ve been closely linked with it time and time again — through death, assault, natural disaster, or oppression (to name a few).

Your trauma may be what we refer to as “little t trauma” — aka “not that significant” to the masses, but to YOU it may still feel big or important. 

Perhaps your trauma is closer to what we call “big T trauma” — the horribly unfair things that come to mind when one hears the word “trauma”. There is hope for you, I promise. Your trauma does not have to define you and it does not have to continue shaping every decision of your life.

The *severity* of your trauma does not matter.

Read that again.

The severity of your trauma 

does 

NOT 

matter. 

And I share this as a means of liberation for people on both sides of the trauma spectrum. 

What may feel incredibly difficult and challenging to me may have no effect on you at all. That’s the tricky and magnificent part of trauma —  it does not affect us all in the same manner. 

But it does affect us. 

No matter the “size” of your trauma, we have all lived through some amount of hardship. The way you feel about your pain or your past is valid.

So, why is healing from trauma so vital for our well-being? And what does it mean to be trauma-informed?

Living with trauma keeps us stuck in survival mode. Every thing is a threat. Life feels - and often is - unexplainably difficult. You may be stuck in fight or flight — constantly on edge and guarded or always go, go, go. Or you may be stuck in a freeze response — unable to move forward with ease and trust for others or yourself. 

Learning your patterns and triggers and how to more effectively cope with stress leads to a softer, safer, and more balanced life. Who wouldn’t want that?

As a coach and movement specialist, being trauma-informed means that I approach healing holistically. Say what? That means that I take into account that a person coming to me for services has likely experienced trauma and needs to be treated as a whole person, rather than focusing in on only one issue. 

Here’s an example: If you’re coming to me for hip pain, I’m not only going to look at your hip and the physical pain that exists there. Together, we’ll be curious about other areas of the body plus the emotional ties attached to your physical body and its pain.

For me, trauma-informed care encompasses: 

- movement modalities like somatic practices, dance, or trauma-informed yoga

- mindfulness practices like meditation, journaling, and creativity

- emotional / psychological support through coaching, energy work, and therapy*

(*not with me)

So why is trauma-informed care important for us ALL?

We’ve all experienced some level and degree of trauma. Period.

We cannot examine our trauma in tiny, compartmentalized aspects of our life, either.

Plus, we live in a world where we are, at almost all times, witnessing trauma on a global scale.

For Highly Sensitive People (HSPs), we are especially attuned to and sensitive of the world’s pain, trauma, violence, and subtleties that non-HSPs do not experience. So for you, sweet HSP, trauma-informed care is not a luxury, but a necessity.

Trauma-informed care guides you into harmony between your body, mind, heart, and spirit again. 

To learn more about the services I offer, click here.

Grieving a Body in Pain

i’ve had widespread chronic pain since 2009. 

it ebbs + flows. there are seasons where i almost forget its existence. but it inevitably returns. 

i shame myself for doing the “wrong” things or not doing enough of the “right” ones. 

there’s a part of me that’s convinced that if i just try harder, do more - the pain will go away. 

or if i could just heal all my emotional pains, the physical pains would dissipate too. 

i carry a heavy burden of shame because i’m trauma informed + have so many somatic tools. and therefore, i “should” be able to fix myself. i “should” know better. 

but what if this isn’t something to fix? what if i don’t need to hold the blame for this pain?

how would it feel to grieve the seemingly impossible dream of having a fully abled, pain-free body? 

i share this not for your pity or sympathy. but i hope my story helps others in pain. 

it’s easy to believe that your pain is your fault. and if you could just try one more thing or show up fuller, the pain will die. 

but this is your - and my - permission slip to just be. be angry with your body that has failed you. be deeply upset by the setbacks + limitations. allow yourself to grieve being in *this* body. without the spiritual bypassing of having to see the silver lining or be grateful for your body’s wisdom. 

today, move + feel. simply be with what is.

Grief Stays

time ticks by
people stop asking, stop checking in
life carries on
but grief,
grief stays

he tickles at your throat
stings behind your eyes
subtle reminders of loss
memories of what could have been

a shocking pain
that cuts so deep -
your inhale catches

he rises with the sun
some days
lingers with the falling night
on others

often quiet
rarely screaming
he just wants your attention

wants you to not forget
the lessons
the heartache
the love that once was

so let him in
pour him a cup of tea
embrace his sorrows
let him be

Take Me to Church

If one year ago, you would have told me I’d be waking up early on a Sunday morning to go to church, I would have laughed - maybe even spat - in your face.

“Church” is a triggering word with so much weight to it. 

I grew up under the hypocrisy of the Catholic Church, which was a true mind fuck as a young teen. “Love everybody” (but really we only mean straight, white, affluent folks).

I lost my connection with the church in high school and for a long time following, refused to admit the existence of God. I’d eventually find my way back to believing in a God - not the one I was raised on though. But my journey to my relationship with spirituality via yoga and other Eastern practices is a story for another time.

So, how did I get back to church?

Well, this is a special kind of church. There are no pews or kneeling, shame or confessions to be made. 

Earth Church is a beautiful gathering of like-minded folks under the trees of McCallum Park. 

We play music.
We love on and receive from Mother Earth.
We learn about environmental topics and social injustices. 
We acknowledge the land. 
We dance, we sing, we play. 
We connect with our inner child.

If you’re craving community and unsure where to find your people, I want to invite you to church.

And it’s ok if “church” still makes you cringe a little. Please come sit and sing and play and then see you how feel.

Earth Church takes place on the second Sunday of each month at 10am at McCallum Park. Jasper Wolfe and Shannon Andrews Skipper are the two incredible humans in charge. But they’ll tell you that Earth Church is led by all of us. Open to all genders, races, religions. This is truly a place to come 100% as you.

Find more info here at the Earth Church Facebook.